Ah they can be actually, but you’re right in my case, yeah..
There are reasons I guess. The main one would be that I miss something that i can’t tell anyone I miss. I try so hard to show people I’m over everything that has happened and that it wasn’t a big deal anyway. But I’m really fucked about it to be honest.
I’m pretty sure I caught a glimpse of Clare today and for fuck’s sake, I was in a stupor. I came out of the bookshop completely unaware that I had bought two that I already owned.
I sat in my car for like 20 minutes and just thought about everything I’ve said and then I felt stupid. Really stupid.
That’s probably the main reason today has been so harsh.